If I am becoming a Great Students at My Class like Them

The first impression when I begin to enter my classroom everyday is: I enter such kind of chemistry laboratory which is full of genius professors, while I just a nerd girl who does not know anything about chemistry, but unfortunately I’m forced by someone to enter this laboratory.

            Oh God… Sometimes I feel so under pressure when I stay at my class. Quickly they understand what the teacher has said. Once get explanation, they will understand it directly. While, I need more time to be understand what the teacher said. I must try to understand it in several times, and then I’ll get those points. I often think and ask to my self “am I different with them? If yes, why must I stay here? Or… Am I too underestimating my self?”

            I have tried to be pro active student. I have tried to look for my good side in order to motivate my self and not fall down deeper. Unfortunately, I still feel that I can’t be as high as them… I don’t know why. Finally, I often give up….

            My teacher has ever said that we can’t underestimate ourselves. In this life we are same. To be good person, we must give our big effort to face everything in front of us. Once more… he has said that we must have target to be a good one, because life is full of competitions, and we must survive inside this life.

            Since my teacher has said like that, I try to change my paradigm. I start to have big desire to change my self to be better. I tried to make daily schedule, list of big rocks and small rocks, plan everything that I will do, and I try to force my self to be diligent student even I have so many organizations that wait me always.

            I have made some promises to my self… If I can reach my target and become as great as them, I will not be arrogant. I will stick the philosophy of paddy in my brain. This philosophy said that “Paddy will bow when it contain more than before”. So, when I can be a good student, I won’t show off all I have. I want to be a humble student who always helps others who get difficulties.

            Then, I will share my knowledge to everyone who needs it. I think it is really a good thing if I can share the good side of mine towards other. May be people suppose that it just a little thing... For me, these are really a great thing if I can give something useful to other people. I believe that it will be so great for my future if I often to help other people to get knowledge in their life.

            The last… If I’m becoming a great student like my classmates, I’m sure that my bright future will wait me at the door named success.
Undoubtedly, I can be a great obstetrician. I can help mothers to give birth her babies, help many women who have some problems with their uterus, and finally I will see the funny babies’ often… beside that, I’m sure that  my parents will proud of me if I can reach all my dreams… Just wait me, Mum… Dad… Your lovely daughter will show you that I can fly…. As high as them absolutely… Ganbatte Shinta… !!!!