This is Not the End of the World

I believe that every person ever has a problem, even it just a little problem that is so easy to solve. It can be about homework, friendship, family, jobs, and also love.  Maybe, some of us will get stress, desperate, dizzy, frustrations, and others when we get those kinds of problems.

As a student, sometimes I also have many complicated problems during my life. This is not only about homework, assignment, school, and other academic problems. Sometimes I must face some complicated problems those are out of that. My problems about academic side are mixed with the other problems. And of course, these are really making my brain so saturated and complicated.

Lately, I felt so frustration with my feeling. I felt so complicated feeling at that time. How can? Yaaaaaaaaaaa….. I know this is my teenage phase. This is my time to feel any feeling that is named by LOVE.

Two weeks ago, I knew that there is a boy that let his heart to stick on my heart, but I’m sorry, I can’t tell his name on this lovely blog… Do you know who he is? Yah, he is my friend at school. I don’t know why, he suddenly came to my life without any certain reason. He came easily and changes my life suddenly. Wait… “Changes my life” here means that he had made my brain and my feeling so complicated. At that time, I don’t know what I should do. I must prefer my boyfriend at Ponorogo, my study process at school, or him as the new comer of my life.

I can’t lie to my self, that as fast as he comes to my life, he can take my big attentions towards him. Honestly, I can’t describe my feeling to him, but I often feel that I always want to near him every time. Is it love? That question always comes to my brain when I begin to let my body to stay at my night bed.

In the other side, I know that I have a boy that is far away from me. I’m really confused to choose the best choice for me and my life. I don’t know which one I must choose, my boyfriend, he, or my study process at school. As a labile teenager, I need someone to tell about this big problem. Thus, I try to tell all of these to my friend. She is Mini. I tell everything to her, and she tries to give her best solution to me. After I get the wise solutions from her, I try to think more about this problem. And almost a week, I feel so GALAU with this condition. I want to cry, but this is so hard to do. Finally I face my GALAU with my biggest struggle. I tried to sleep, play everything I want, open my facebook account, and others.. But this is still making me galau, guys…

One day, I get an inspiration… I don’t know from whom that inspiration comes… Clearly, I’ve found my best way to choose. And I’ve make paradigm that this is not the end of the world… And finally, I choose to not choose both of the boys, and I prefer choose study hard for my best future. There is no relationship anymore before I become a success person. That’s my promise.